Today

Today I wait.
Today is a waiting game for ME!
I sit here with both feet swollen to the point of walking ability is only on a NEED basis. I am frustrated because my Father is here for a visit and I have not seen him in 2 years.
He recently lost his Beloved and due to health issues on my part I have not been able to visit him. I am frustrated because I can barely move.
I am mad that it has to be both of my feet.

Today I am going to push fluids, eat salt free meals, and put Ice on myself all day long.
Today I am going to find a way to calm myself down.  I do not know how I am going to do this as of yet... I  tend to fight with myself on taking care of ME. I tend to be great for everybody else, but when it comes to me I just can't seem to care enough.

My mind is a troublesome problem when it comes to ME. 

I tend to have a "lets tear myself apart and build myself up" attitude.

I find it kind of funny that a Type A personality is what I have to have along with Fibromyalgia. I think I am going to find one object to look at to try to bring some focus to myself.

Today is going to be a L O N G day....